SPM

There are a lot decent girls but there are so little decent guys. Sigh. haha

Hello again! (notice the joy in my voice? :D :D )

How am I? Why thank you for asking. I am extremely devastated HAPPY! :) Well, I'm happy and sad actually.

Happy, because...drum rolls please! Oh well, you probably already know. Everyone's been talking about it. You knowwww. I mean, come one. You KNOW this one. I know you do. Come onnnn. Oh alright, I'll say it.

SPM'S OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

HAHA. How could one NOT be HAPPY. SPM is, I swear, the scariest shit everrrr. The scariest EXAM ever. I still shiver man. Brrr. Never ever want to go through that again. InsyaAllah. Chem and Physics was a bitch. heh. But its okay. Ive triedd. :)))))) And its overrrrr. Wahhhhh!

I still can't believe it. I still can't believe that it's over. It's really over! hahahaha Well, you better believe it girl, you won't wanna waste your time aite? Actually..now that its over...I can afford to waste time...HEHEHE.

So far, freedom sucks. But STILL. FREEEEEEDOMMMMM. I keep on having the Dolce & Gabbana's ad song playing in my head. haha. When it was PMR, we had the Boys Like Girls song, Great Escape, to tell everyone how we feel. No such song this year though.

Or maybe.

So I put my hands up they're playing my song.

Nonononononononononononono!

And sad because. I finally decided to let you go haha....BECAUSE, of this.






huhuhuhu. I'm so gonna miss you guysssss. huhuhuhu. And I still cant get everyone to sign my magazineeeeee. wuwuwuwu. And everyones going away so soon! :( My heart is breaking...for so many different reasons.

I guess, I could run away from this, last time. But not now. Now, now is now. I have to go through with this. It was my decision. And it is inevitable. People come and go. But I hope none of you will go. Stay. Please stay. We can make it through anything. Stay and lets face the world together. Id be by your side, and you be by mine. That would be a life, worth living. To have all of you by my side. And life's challenges would seem easier.


I guess, we'll see.

Haha. I don't know what else to say. Still so overwhelmed. I guess I'll see you guys later. I'm guessing a lot of things now. Haha. Its so hard to find certainty in things nowadays. Gotta let it all flowww. Right.

Im trying to do damage control. My face my face my face. haha

decode me. wohoo.

Alright, take care and babai!

Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta

usai sudah semua. :]

Because it is so impossibly hard

I wish that you could see the potential, the potential of you and me.

aku dan kucingku

Well hello!

I feel so happy I must be on ecstacy!

Ofcourse.

Anyway. So a few hours ago, I had my last date with Physics. It was a complete DISASTER - the second half of the date. Yeah we have 3 parts during our date cause ah, that's just the way we roll. Um. BUT, I hope it was NOT a COMPLETE DISASTER though, cause if it IS, then I am DOOMED. (Imagine me talking and stressing those words, must be very annoying ey? haha) Although I do not put much hope on physicssssssss but still. My motivation for physics? Well,

Must NOT Fail Mr. Nafri.

I mean, it is only right for that to be my motto. Ahah. Have I not the slightest (okay, exaggerating. I DO have a SLIGHT interest in physics but eh *scratch head*.) interest in physics. All these two years of never failing, is so that I won't fail Mr. Nafri. I somehow, didn't really fail him thaaat bad by never failing I guess. lol. He's a good teacher really. I mean really good teacher. Doesn't get mad, (though some would beg to differ, for some have tasted his anger, but you know, it's their fault so.) and yada2. And if you really pay attention in his class, you'd score physics. Positive. And that only goes to show...

It is a known fact that Physics and Lii equals to no chemistry. And speaking of chemistry, we burned, baby, we burned. Chemistry would be our last subject! I'd be making out with chem, soon. You just wait *wink* eh. So as for now, THREE MORE PAPERS TO GO! YIPEEEEEEEE.

Oh and on my table there's this thing that I'll read every single time I have to sit for my papers and it just always makes me...laugh.

"Apa mslh kt? (what's our problem?)
Aku cinta kw (I love you)
kw cinta aku (you love me)
Knk ko x cyk aku...(why don't you believe me?)"

Haha! I mean, I don't mean to laugh but I don't know why...I just do. Hm...skipped my pills probably. Or maybe it just sounds so very emo and...JIWANG. Yeah that's the word. But atleast it's not as corny as

I don't know why either.

And there is also the one about the smile and and haaa...oh well. One is entitled to their own opinion. And if they think that is the way to speak and hmmm...malas nak bercakap.

I have no life except for SPM at the moment. Then again, I had no life even without SPM...I cut my hair! Yeah. Yeah. Although my FAVOURITE salon was closed that day. Oh it's Eros 2 hair salon (if I'm not mistaken) at Hopoh. I love the hairdresser. Only he understands me. sobs. SO anyway, I did my haircut at the salon NEXT to my favourite salon. The hairdresser, he, he, he *runs away sobbing* Well, he said he'll be cutting my hair up till BELOW my shoulders but look what he has done? I was shocked, precious. Yes, yes we were. And I frigging look like I was six. Only a whole LOT less cuter. Ahahaha. Dayum.


I thought I still look presentable during this exam period but how wrong was I. I took a few cough photos of myself cough a while ago and I look so so so, well, cute. I mean, how else can I look like, right? psh. Haha okay cmon man, I was just messing with ya. Quit barfing.

Well I look

sick sad tired and huge.

Yeah. :(

Well, during raya they all think it's funny to say all " Look at the face of orang SPM" and then go all " Orang Spm pun muka liciiiiin (Saying something about my face is clear from acne) But baby, pre-spm and during spm face? HUGE DIFFERENCE.

pre-spm

during spm.

OH WELLS.

And about that, well, its really out of my hands. Feedbacks I'm getting just tear me apart. Therefore now, I leave it all to Allah Almighty. To Him I tell all my worries and to Him will I be vulnerable and only to Him will I ask for help and forgiveness. I seek for forgiveness and peace. I hope I will find it someday. I hope He will listens and understands my worries and my pain and help me, for I am a mere mortal; weak and powerless. It is out of my hands. And I believe that, with God's willing, everything will be alright in the end. I just have to be patience and strong. I have to be patience and strong. I have to be patience. I have to be strong. I have to be.

No use crying and falling sick because of it right?

Ooooh! I have Supernatural Season 5! Thank You SARA! And the folder tricks? Neat. *thumbs up* :D Yes people, BE SUPER JEALOUS. LOLOLOLOLO (that is not LOL - laugh out loud. It is what it is. lololololo)

And, I've suggested this LONG before (sejak azali lagi) and I'll suggest it again, watch ACCEPTED if you have never watch it because you are missing on LIFE if you've never watch it!

It has been awhile since I post a long post like this one. I almost forgot how to type! Sis' big day coming soon! Gotta shed them lipids and fight them acnes! I am after all, a keti. Ahaha. It never gets old, that honey bee joke. Hah. (Glossary : keti = lebah kecil. How cute is that? =D )

My birthday sucked.

Jia Haw and Breadman, teach me how to speak (and if possible, write in Mandarin) after SPM, ke yi ma? OR I'LL VODOO YOU BOTH! MUAHAHAHAHA HAHA HA HA Haaa...

UHH I'LL MISS YOU GUYS TO BITS!

I'm already sleepy. And I hate not feeling well. Haih. I can make it through this! Winchesters are waiting for me!

Back to Supernatural-ing, love!

So until then,

You gotta spend some time, love.
You gotta spend some time, with me.
I know that you'll find, love.
I will possess your heart.


BABAI!

incurable

You've taken me to the top, and let me fall back south, You've had me at the top of the pile, and then had me kissing the ground. We've heard and seen it all, no ones talked us out. The problems that have come haven't yet torn us down.

I totally love this song. Two more subjects to go but I am as unhappy as can be. I know right. psh.

Proper updates soon. I think I'm coming down with something, again. Haih. This is the second time Im falling sick this exams. :(

But this time, it is to the core.

Am I keeping you awake? If I am then just say. You can make your own decisions; you can make your own mistakes. I'll live and let die all the promises you made. If you lie another time, it'll be a lie that's too late.

oh and cut my hair - short.

Right.

Tien ahh tiennn...

Hi everyone.

I would like to say I am deeply sorry if I've done or said anything wrong. Or if I've been hurtful, disrespectful, rude or been any other ways that has caused ill feelings, with or without intentions. I sincerely hope you would forgive me and I hope you would pray for good luck and success for me, and for my friends as we fight our last and most important battle, as high school students. Thank you.

Yours sincerely,
lii